CJ McPhee

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Nurturing the Disseminator

Her hands are at once comforting and familiar to me.  They’ve smoothed, combed, separated, and braided my hair from young childhood into my now blossoming womanhood.  As her hands work their way through my scalp, she weaves her magic.  She is the eldest woman in the tribe and my Great Grandmother.  I feel honored in this relation and a sense of destiny within the group.  Since before my birth, they have had great expectations for me but I do not feel obligated to uphold any role here.  There is a natural balance within this group. Every brother and sister is of importance to the whole. We are collectively committed to living in the flow.  When the natural order is disrupted we can right it by unveiling a deeper aspect of who we are.  I have always felt sure of myself within this community.  Great Grandmother says that Icame into the world for the purpose of receiving and transmitting information crucial to the tribe for generations to come.

Tonight I get to give them something useful.  I never know what it will be exactly but I do know that I will also receive.  Great Grandmother prepares me.  I let the ritual unfold.  I let my mind relax into nothingness.  My thoughts become too heavy to sit upright, so they lay down on the Earth to take a nap.  Quiet becomes an opening into something bigger than us. The Great Woman’s words begin to wash over me and I feel my Self transported to a different world yet still aware of her presence and the presence of the tribe as they prepare themselves to receive what will come through me. The physical world recedes into the background as I become increasingly aware of a power approaching from the back of my head.  The force of it is gentle, yet relentless and it will not stop until the feeling is translated into images and then words.  My words will wash over them and be translated by the tribe back into images and then into feeling.  In the feeling there is meaning.

This is not work for me.  This is my contribution.  Tomorrow Great Grandmother will sit with me by the river.  As we wash clothes, we will chant in meditation.  At dusk, she will ask me what I received.  I will respond without thinking and she will understand.

Respect runs deep between us.

What quality of energy are you receiving from your environment and your relationships?   How can you open yourself more to receiving from the creative infinity that you are?  What kind of relationships do you nurture?  Do you create time to quiet your mind and relax into your body?

CJ McPhee

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4 Responses to “Nurturing the Disseminator”

  1. carl patrick thinks:

    May 4th, 2012 at 9:58 pm

    i find myself needing to nurture my mind and body more and get away from the negtive influnices in my life. you through your words, stories and with energy moves has started me on my way. i see myself in a more positive light amd now am beginning to realize that i am important and i can use the energy that surrounds me to heal mentally and physically to continue on the path to truly make myself better. thank you cj for being you.

  2. CJ McPhee thinks:

    May 16th, 2012 at 8:01 am

    Carl, what an empowering comment! You are so important and valuable. I can feel your intention through this writing!
    Many thanks! CJ

  3. Ginni Price thinks:

    January 19th, 2013 at 1:48 am

    As I was reading this I felt so close Great Grandmother. I began thinking about when I was out paddling in a canoe last fall. As I meandered slowly up the shoreline a woodchuck appeared and we sat silently together. The woodchuck was not alarmed by presence. I was enchanted by it’s willingness to be with me in the quite. Your thought, quiet becomes an opening into something bigger than us describes that moment perfectly. I felt something much bigger was at hand. It a was powerful in time and I am grateful for it!

    Your story has really moved me, thanks for sharing it.

  4. CJ McPhee thinks:

    January 19th, 2013 at 10:54 am

    Ginni, As I reread this story, I see similarities between her tribe, her community, and a wolf pack.
    I never noticed this before. You have opened me up to that realization. I think that everyone wants
    to be part of a community that makes them feel like they belong and have unique value but if we don’t
    “know” our value, then we cannot feel like we belong. That has been my experience.
    Great Grandmother is an energetic guidance that I often feel. The first time I felt her, there was a
    sense of her standing behind me and braiding my hair, talking to me in a comforting and wise way.
    She makes me feel loved and allowing myself to receive that love has helped me to know my value.
    Many thanks for your feedback. Always uplifting to hear from you!


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